HELLO EARTHLINGS!
It has been ages since I last touched,flipped,sign in and update my dearest personal diary,blog and tumblr.I have forgotten my tumblr username and password that I have to do a new one but unfortunately the same thing happened again.I have LONG decided to abandoned my dearest personal diary because of my 'PERFECTIONIST'.
Luckily I still able to use trial and error to sign in to this BLOGGER page.I NEVER thought that I would be DOING BLOGGING again.The reason why I still WANT to blog is because I got to know that one of Republic Polytechnic friends of mine which has a name of Natasha owned a blog and ACTIVE-ly update it EVERYDAY!
Well being a 'PERFECTIONIST',I always tried my best in whatever I do be a SMALL matters or a BIG matters .I tried to do it with a heart,mind and soul that are sincere,honest,relax and easy.Therefore in order for me to update my BLOG,my MOOD,WORDS and TIME must be CO-OPERATIVE!
Before I began today UPDATE,I would like to take this OPPORTUNITIES to APOLOGIES to my DEAREST blog and READERS who NEVER fail to KNOW the update of my LIFE!(if there is/are).A LOT of MATTERS happened.ALL EMOTIONS,THINKING&LIFESTYLES included.
More CLEARER version is as what the caption in this photo;
THINGS CHANGE..PEOPLE CHANGE!
I noted that MOST reader must be WONDERING why among A LOT of TOPICS that I can make as my COME BACK, why I decided to do this TOPIC as a COME BACK entry.
It is because this TOPIC ALWAYS BOTHERED my life!
I DO NOT mind THINGS change which is NORMAL because we NEED to INNOVATE things in ORDER to have CHALLENGE in life.
BUT PEOPLE CHANGE is the HARDEST things that one human being can HANDLE!
I DO NOT know is it me who is OVER SENSITIVE or that is HOW real LIFE that Allah s.w.t has WRITTEN and CREATING!
Ever since when I was in Primary Five,one of the MOST closest FRIEND of mine which I took her as my BEST FRIEND and had a same name as me,decided to CALLED OFF our FRIENDSHIP!From there, I LOST FAITH in FRIENDSHIP whats MORE BEST FRIEND!
All I DARE to called a FRIEND that is CLOSE to be as my CLOSE FRIEND!
I CAN'T really RECALLED what the REASON for CALLED OFF that FRIENDSHIP but what I know I DID TEAR like a COUPLE BREAK OUT!
Slowly I PULLED myself through and GO on with my LIFE till NOW but UNFORTUNATELY again I DO/DID NOT able to UNDERSTAND and APPRECIATED friendship because my SECONDARY and ITE friends make me see myself as a 'TOUCH N GO'.
Even though I have CLOSE FRIEND with the name Nur Amirah but I STILL UNABLE to APPRECIATE and UNDERSTAND friendship.As I typed all these out,I come to REALIZE that Allah is EVERYTHING.NOTHING is STRONGER that HIS WILL!Maybe I FELT LEFT OUT and 'TOUCH N GO' because I DID NOT know how to be myself in front of people that I just KNOW,GETTING to KNOW or even have KNOWN.I also DID NOT know to APPRECIATE people present and I MIGHT have done/doing the SAME things to THEM that it HITS me back.Mostly I HAVE LOST FAITH in Allah CHALLENGE that HE ADD on just to TEST me AGAIN and AGAIN.
I CAN'T DENY!I do NOTED and ALWAYS NOTED that ALLAH is EVERYTHING but I STILL yet to ACCOMPLISH my RESPONSIBILITY well.All I can say is that my IMAN is still WOBBLING on a THIN strings!
I want to do a detail update but unfortunately I can't.It is because I run out of words and ideas to express out how,what,when,where and who this TOPIC bothered me.
But whatever it is,I feel RELIEF and a little STRESS free about this TOPIC!
Although I CAN'T really FIND a way OUT to it!
Insyallah ONE DAY when I sincerely,honestly,easy and relax to OPEN my LITTLE heart and EYES to see it in POSITIVE ways and LEARN the meaning of FRIENDSHIP,this TOPIC would not BOTHER me.
With all the brain cells that have DIE and brain juice that have DRIED UP,I end my come back entry here.
Insyallah tomorrow or any moment where my MOOD,TIME&WORDS are being CO-OPERATIVE,I will UPDATE my DEAREST blog!
With these,
Take Care
Goodbye..
Goodnight,Sweetdream and Sleeptight.
XoXo!:DD
